Ingrained on my skin were seeds of flowers that you sowed,
But they took weeks, months,
To grow.

I was waiting for nature to take its effect,
I was waiting for something to bloom,
But the reality of you was like a shadow looming over them,
And now I’m starting to see the flaws about their placement.

I’d rather be wrong about everything else,
Than be wrong about you,
But I don’t think I’ll get that chance,
And I’ll be fighting against myself and common sense.

A glimmer of hope takes over me,
And of that, I still can’t let go.
You’re this daydream of an unkempt garden I keep dreaming,
But can never visit.
I know you’re not real,
For ghosts to even exist, shouldn’t I first feel something?

(Bouquets haunt me when I sleep!)

Hey, guys. This piece was like therapy for me or like a shower of rain we wait for on hot, humid, sad, bad days. The part in brackets was meant to be funny, I don’t know if that translated well or not. Even though I’ve definitely felt my feelings the last few weeks, I couldn’t get them down on paper. Maybe I spent all of my creative energy into daydreaming, MAYBE.

Recently, it’s been like someone put my sense of self in a mortar and pestle-d the hell out of it. So ending this with a question felt fitting.

Alternative title: You’re starting to fade and that’s okay


  1. wardah says:

    Yayy glad it’s showing up now! This piece is so beautiful. The last part in brackets made me smile, but ahhh I love your imagery, so ethereal and stunning. The feeling of missing someone is so palpable. But hey, it’ll be okay. Take care 🤍🤍

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  2. Ace says:

    “You’re this daydream of an unkempt garden I keep dreaming,” – this is such an epic line! And this poem is just WOW!!!! This is one of my favorites of yours, just magical writing and the emotion behind it is so palpable!! You’re one amazing writer!!! I love your analogy about the mortar and pestle, change always ends up being a good thing in the end! Sending so much love and hugs, pal 🖤🖤🤗

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    1. Aarushi says:

      Umm, thank you so much Ace. This is so sweet, I don’t even know what to say🥺 I hope you’re right about the change thing otherwise it’s only the grind that’s left.
      Virtual hugs for you and ineffable love❤️❤️

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      1. Ace says:

        Aww you’re so welcome, I truly mean it!!!! And I know it’s hard, but, you’re so strong and the Universe is always looking out for you, I promise!! 🖤Big hugs 🤗🤗🤗

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