What I wanted

I have a distorted view of the world, I want you to smoothen it out,
Crawl into my spine and straighten it out.
No one has my back, not even me,
I want you to hug me and not leave.

I’ve fed my hands to the worms that live in my pocket,
I can’t hold you.
I don’t know if I can handle your touch on my skin,
I already feel you too much in my bones.

I can’t find my footing,
My knees get weak when I have to speak about you,
My heart bottoms out when I imagine a world without you.

I want you to travel to my brain
and give me some perspective.
I want you to rest on my tongue and vocal cords,
So I can let you out like a scream,
As a final catharsis.

Atleast that was what I wanted.


  1. Your words really sparkle with poetical beauty! Each post is so good!

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  2. wardah says:

    “No one has my back, not even me”
    This line is just, so beautiful, but alsoo 🥺🥺🥺
    Hey, sometimes it takes longer than you think to heal, but it’ll happen. Better days are coming, if only you stick around with hope to see them. Lots of love, friend 🥺🤗🤗❤

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    1. Aarushi says:

      I’m holding out on the hope, wardah🥰 thank you so much and for your kind words❤️❤️

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  3. Ace says:

    Wow Aarushi, this is just breathtakingly beautiful. I am blown away! That first stanza is remarkable, and the love/power in your words is palpable. Well done as always, my friend 🖤🤗


    1. Aarushi says:

      thank you, Ace❤️ I was way too nervous and embarrassed to post this, I’m glad you like it🤗

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  4. caitpoetry says:

    Oh wow. I’m literally speechless this is so spectacularly written Aarushi! The imagery is so so beautiful and the piece itself is so heartfelt. Much love ❤️❤️


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