I was happy to see you,
so I said hello to someone else when you were in earshot.
Did the same thing when I wanted to say goodbye for good.
You never asked how I got through it all but I wanted you to be proud of me,
even a little happy for me because of the days I’ve had,
even when I said it to them
I really hope you heard.
I wanted you to know that I was swimming upstream with all I had in me,
To get to hold your hand.